Sepenggal Kisah

Dalam kebimbangan hidup kuterus berjalan..
menelusuri kota yang ramai meski terasa sepi bagiku..

Bayang2 dirimu terus menghantui hidupku..
dapatkah aku kembali normal menjalani hidupku..

Kesedihan mendalam selalu menyelimuti kesendirianku
Apakah ada yang mengetahui perasaanku??
Aku rasa tak ada..
Orang2 sudah terlalu sibuk mengurusi urusannya masing2..
dan aku... terlalu malu mengakui kerapuhanku

Kumencoba mencari kembali diriku yang hilang
kubangun kembali mimpi2ku yang porak-poranda..
merangkai hari baru..
Mencari teman2 baru..

Apakah aku mencoba lari dari kenyataan?
Tidak ku berusaha mengenyahkannya..
Perjuangan yang tak mudah.. dan sering ku gagal
mengenyahkannya dengan mencoba hal2 baru
Hal2 yang menyenangkan.. apapun kata orang tentangku

Dahulu kuselalu ingin menyenangkan orang lain
tanpa memikirkan diriku sendiri
yang ada malah ku semakin menderita
dan orang lain pun tak pernah puas

Sekarang saatnya..
Hidupku sangat berarti..
Kuharus mencintai diriku sendiri..
Membahagiakan diri sendiri..
Baru kubisa mencintai orang lain.

Kumulai semua..
kutarik perhatian semua orang yang kusuka
kusenangkan diriku sendiri..
kuhabiskan waktu dengan bersenang2 dengan orang yang kusuka..
Entah dia masih sendiri atau sudah memiliki pasangan..
dari karaoke, jalan2, nonton bioskop, main game..
aku tak peduli lagi dengan hidup biasa yang membosankan..

Sampai akhirnya aku kaget..
ternyata selama ini ada seseorang yang memperhatikanku..
seseorang yang tak pernah kusangka..
mungkin semua orang juga kaget.. (soalnya aku sendiripun kaget)

Tapi..
Dia bisa membuatku tidak bisa tidur memikirkannya
Dia bisa membuatku nyaman didekatnya
Bisa membuat hidupku kembali indah
Bisa mengisi kekosongan hidupku
Bisa mengimbangi kelemahanku
terlebih penting bisa menerimaku apa adanya..

Apakah ini akan terus berlanjut??
I hope so.. be continued

When Taurus and Scorpio come together in a love affair

When Taurus and Scorpio come together in a love affair, their union is nothing if not intense, whether that's in a positive or a negative way. They are opposite Signs in the Zodiac, giving them a special, complex connection. They can combine to make a whole, each partner's strengths balancing the other's weaknesses. Their sexual attraction is likely to be off the charts! Taurus and Scorpio have tons in common, but because their personalities are so powerful, they often swing between passionate love and passionate disagreement!

Taurus and Scorpio both have deep desires, Taurus for possessions and Scorpio for power. They're both concerned with wealth and resources, and they're both intensely passionate about all sorts of things. Taurus is a bit more self-focused than Scorpio, who is more concerned with their lover and immediate family. Both of these Signs have a great, deep-rooted need for security in a relationship, but with slightly different focuses. While Taurus prizes honesty and forthrightness and abhors infidelity, Scorpio loves to be mysterious. A Scorpio's need for security is more about the need to be constantly reassured that their emotional connection with their loved one is strong. The good thing is, Taurus needs this reassurance too -- and is also willing to provide it for their Scorpio lover.

Taurus is ruled by Venus (Love and Money) and Scorpio is ruled by Mars (Passion) and Pluto (Power). This combination is very intense, thanks to Pluto's influence, but it's an excellent balance of masculine and feminine energy. Scorpio and Taurus together form the basis of all love relationships -- love and passion. Venus and Mars go well together; Venus is about the beauty of romance, and Mars is about the passion of romance. Scorpio is smoldering and intense (and intensely sexual), and Taurus, a sensual and tireless lover, is attracted to this intensity. In turn, Scorpio enjoys the devotion inherent in Venus-ruled Taurus.

Taurus is an Earth Sign and Scorpio is a Water Sign. Scorpio tends to be very deep -- like an ocean, too much upset will cause a tidal wave! When Scorpio feels crossed by a lover, watch out for that Scorpion's tail, which can whip out and sting their lover without warning! It's a good thing that these two Signs are so strongly loyal to each other. But while Taurus is open, with everything laid bare on the surface, Scorpio is more secretive and inscrutable. They can both teach one another about their opposite views of life (direct versus complex). Another factor adding a tantalizing dimension to this union is the two Signs' mutual tendency toward jealousy. Taurus loves it when Scorpio displays their jealous -- it means Taurus is adored and appreciated!

Taurus and Scorpio are both Fixed Signs. This means they're both pretty stubborn and resolute once their minds are made up. Let's hope their minds agree -- if not, they're prone to fights the likes of which neither experiences with any other Sign. Taurus seems to prevail as the dominant partner, but that's not always the case. Scorpio can ""win"" through more devious means, such as employing emotional manipulation to get what they want. These partners must learn to discuss their views and needs openly and to reach a compromise if they want their union to be lasting and happy. This largely depends on Scorpio's ability to learn to trust Taurus. The relationship will only fail if the two partners truly cannot overcome their opinionated, fixed stances.

What's the best aspect of the Taurus-Scorpio relationship? Their powerful connection that can shine when obstacles to intimacy are cleared away. When Scorpio realizes that Taurus is there for the long term and won't create the misery that some Scorpios attract to their lives, this relationship can blossom.

This who i am

what Should i do..
Just be my self

I can't be Your Angel
always protected on your life

I can't be Your martyr
Sacrifise my life for you

I can't be Your Profet
Alway forgive your fault

I can't be Your Knight
Be Your Saviour from this world

I Can't be Your Fairy
Heal all your disease

I'm just an ordinary person,
not a perfect creature

But I Have heart to love someone
just for you with sincere

I will be there if you need me
To support,pray, and listen your problem

Im So sorry if my limitation tired you
If i Cant be the person you expect me to be

But deepest inside my heart
i dedicate all my life for you

as long as you can take care of my heart
as long as God bless our way

I hope we can be couple forever
Until God take me back

Apakah Hidup itu?

Apakah hidup itu?
apakah benar hidup tak seindah mimpi
atau kita yang terpuruk dengan keadaan dunia
dapatkah mewujudkan mimpi dalam dunia nyata
mengharapkan yang terbaik untuk hidup
Bukan hanya sekedar hidup

Susah senang sedih gembira
sama saja berujung pada kematian
yang dapat kita nikmati
Hanya apa yang kita pinjam dari Tuhan

Keinginan2 kita kadang membawa kita pada kekecewaan
Sedih berkepanjangan karena tidak mendapatkannya
Kerja keras berlebihan sepanjang hidup kita
Whats the Point??

Itukah yang kita harapkan??

Kumenyadari memiliki sesuatu yang sangat berharga
Yang telah Tuhan percayakan padaku
Yaitu dirimu seutuhnya..
Yang sungguh merupakan mukjizat bagiku
dalam kehampaan hidup ini
Bagai setitik embun di tanah hatiku yang gersang

Anugerah yang sangat luar biasa..
yang terkadang sering kuabaikan
Tertutup oleh keinginan-keinginan duniawi yang lain
Padahal hanya itulah keindahan dunia ini terungkap..

Selama bumi masih berputar dan Tuhan memberiku nafas
Kuingin menikmatinya bersamamu
Melewati setiap detik kehidupan bersamamu
Senang dan susah bersama..
Menciptakan surga ditengah2 dunia bersamamu..

Thanks God, Amin.

New Month

New Month is come..
Prepare your self..
to face of the better future..
every minutes
every hour time run away behind us
Our memories leave us.. never come back

hope God Always Blessing our move
hope God Always Blessing our Love
hope God showing our way
hope God Clearing our way

Learn from the past
MOVE together
bring happiness..
bring hope.. to new month..